Monologue of Bell Hook's daughter (Sub-altern Fiction)

It was a windy June Sunday. For Bell would have named the day a wuthering day but she has seen worse living in Brighton. Hence, not just yet. When Emily Bronte wrote Wuthering Heights , Bell believed that Emily Bronte or erstwhile Currer Bell was most certainly trying to draw parallels between the internal and external torrents; there is something tragic to reflect and soothing to feel when there is an external calamity in form of thunderstorm or lightning etc., that ostensibly emulates one's internal clamour. Although far from home, yet Bell holds home nearly but it may not be possible to always hold it dearly. Though things are settling down inside Bell now, this phase is always past the phase of great upheaval and torment. Women are said to be prone to hysteria; Bell's father always defined her behaviour as hysterical too. While, she understood over time, men find it impossible to justify women's behaviour, she could never bring herself to question her behaviour; there w...

Revival

 

Our manoeuvres were unstoppable for two weeks in a row.

It started in the month of April and the sun had been pouring wrath like never before. We were incessantly working with zeal while profusely sweating.

Revival Rain in Kolkata
Then one day, there was a burst of clouds followed by thunderstorm. The thunderstorm came as a respite right after sunset. Later, it rained unabated for hours after hours till morning. I was drenched under rain along with others that night. I could not pay attention to feelings as long as I was dealing with the work in hands. It was until we took shelter under a shanty that I realised how cold I was inside and shivering outside. I saw people running covering their heads under flickering streetlights flanked on both sides of the roads. Some felt passion for rain while others felt against it. I felt nothing but cold. The parched ends in my chest were frayed under the pattering rain and tore open. I felt as cold as though the rain was pouring only on me. I felt lonely and my chest was ploughed upon.

Although, little did I know that my ploughed chest could bear saplings of emotions now. Today, the clouds are banking, and the raining season is nearing its peak. I await for the sapling to branch further and further to fetch me warmth, chirping birds, butterflies. I want to hear the brushing leaves when wind blows and whiff wet soil. I have hopes that when it rains this time, I’d not be alone. The banking clouds seem to announce that the rain is going to be different this year.  

 



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  1. Warms my hopeful heart that you don't have to be alone under the rain anymore.

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    1. ''anymore'; am I really far from where I wanted to escape? Update on recent thoughts: Past is encoded within genes, it's not that easy to get rid of. What was I even talking about haha

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  2. Perhaps not now, not today, but yes someday soon. It is an unfair fight, but then there is hope for us, because we choose to change the circumstances. Day by day nothing changes but when we look back, everything is different. I am not acquainted with your battle, but honestly, I want to believe and hope for all things good for people like you. The world needs more of you, of us.

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